Monday, March 14, 2011

no matter how i try to hate him , still, i cnt. :'(





cause i've loved him too much..





and the fact is, i cnt live without him..





but i cnt stand this anymore..





goodnight. :'(

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU!

dy penah ckp, he loves me the most. the things that he hd said to me, dy tk penah ckp kt ex2 dy b4. and im the 1st person yg dy anggp 'wife' and not as a gf. thats all crap! i'd just read bnde2 kt blog dy, and jmpe bnde2 yg dy tulis psl ex dy, yg sme mcm dy pnh ckp kt i! perlu ke tipu?!well, congrats! u had just made me hate u more! shou;ld have know it from the beginning.  

:'(

yesterday, i was just came back from my mpp camp. i was so tired like hell but all i think about is that i wanna make sure that he will be the first person ill text rite after my parents. and so, i texted him. then, g online.. like usual, msti kne tgk page dy. this is when i read something that really made my heart felt like it wanna fall down and break. and at that moment, i really thought that he could care less about how ill feel if i read it. it never crossed my mind that he will greeted me home this way. seriously, i was so upset with him. he keep on texting me from yesterday evening until now but i refused to give him any respond. now, im having doubt about him. and my mum is not helping. dari smlm puji2 dy. haihh. im tired of this! he's keeping on doing the same thing again! and i have feeling like i wanna to call it off. i dnt need anyone to break my heart over and over again. i love him. but i love myself too. not to be selfish but i cant stand it anymore. this is not the first time he's doing this to me.