well, actually, i would like to say sorry to someone, but, i guess, tk berapa berani nk face to face dgn dia and  cakap dpan2. so, hmm, to capital A, sorry awak. sorry sbb tk dpat nak accept awak balik. its not that i dnt want to, but, mcam yg saya ckap, saya takut. hmm, saya tau awak IM akak smlm kat fb, hmm, thank you sebab still amek kisah pasal saya. appreciate sngt, awak. besides, awak dh ad new relationship kan, so, get moving with it, okay? ppe pn, saya still akan doakan yang terbaik untuk awak :)
seriously, kalau bole, saya nak kita still jd kawan, but, i know that its hard        for you. so, saya respect keputusan awak:) please jaga diri. and please jadi              
                                                   macam dulu. awak dh terlalu berubah. hmm, anyways, goodluck spm..  

dalam sedih2, still, i got my frens yg SELALU AD! :) farah amyra, aimi, fifi, iylia, mel, daus, and.. fazlie <3

goshh.. korang yg terbaikk! well, nama kat hujung tu, bnyk bg semangat and slalu bwt mya rasa okay balik

if mya tgah down. dia tk pnah lagi fail nak bwt mya gelak if mya tgh sedih tahap gaban.. hehe. syang you! :D

farah, dia mmg dari dulu, sampai skrg, still akan ad kat situ even kteorng dh tk selalu jmpe mcm dulu.. syang 

kau jugak do!!

aimi, fifi, iylia, mel, daus.. kawan yg gila tahap nak tercabut otak tu, diorang lah! haha. dgn dorang, nak sedih pun tk sempat. sure tergelak! :) you know what? im lucky to have you guys tau tk? please dnt go away from me.. sayang sngt kat korang.. tersangat sayang! muahmuahmuah!!! hoho!

tau tak? after dah lama gila, now my dh start contact balik dgan DIA.. i gotta say, that i miss him kot.. alhamdulillah, baik jugak akhirnye.. skrg, agak kerap dh text, but DIA still susa lg kot and i understand that.. yg penting, dh baikk. even if kawan je, i dnt mind. as long as mya tk hilang DIA completely dari hidup mya:) Allah dah makbulkan doa mya supaya dpat baik balik dgan dia. bersyukur sngt.. ppe pun yg akan jadi lepas ni, mya harap DIA happy even dgan spe pun he will be with after this.. <3

what a confusing situation..

well, dh lama sesangat la kan tk update blog. kdang2 rasa mcm bnde ni tk b'nyawa je. hehe. chop! nk luahkn segala yg terbuku di hati nii.. (skema punya ayat-.-)

mcam2 dh jd.. one of it, im currently single now.. it's over between me and danial and truthfully, msti la sedih kn.. and actually, i dnt knw how it happened. and honestly, still. my heart is still with him. i do love him but there's too much people who cant see us happy being together and maybe thats the reason for all this happened. but i do want us to get back together but it takes time. i think that both of us need time for ourself. plus, dia nk spm this year. so i tknk dia stress every time kitaorng gaduh when people start ckap bnde2 bodo psal dia or the other way around. 

tu, baru satu.. next, i've joined citrawarna and it was awesome! seriously, i really had enjoyed it. skola i bwat tarian sewang. gila best! dgan zapin, and m'sia truly asia, it was a very meaningful experient. plus, dpat duit pulak.. mmg best la kan! :)

i've met this guy, will not tell who is he. i could tell that i kinda like him but its just that. not more and i thought that he like me too by the way dia layan i, the way he talk to me, you know. as in i am his girlf kinda thing. but he's confusing. kadang2 dia mcam tu, and there's time when i felt like he's jst playing around. i really want to ask him what really that he want but, i dont really have the guts. i do wish that he could just explain it to me instead of main teka-teki mcm ni. mmg tk paham. my frens ckap dia t ckap serupa keling. mmg btul pun. keling ckap pun i paham lg. well, entah la. conclusionnye, i'll just let him be. malas nk tau. if dia nk terus terang, its good la. if dia terus mcam main2 je, just go away.

and, i've lost my bestie. dia dh tk contact i. even if she knows that i online dekat facebook pun, dia tk tegur. and, i dengar crite dia tukar no celcom and she didn't tell me. sedih yg teramat sangat! bt apa bole buat. mybe dia dh dpat kawan baru kt sana and dh tk perlukn someone like me. so, yeahh. let her be. tknk paksa2. 

btw! sebelum lupa, my sis, dpat masuk matrikulasi selangor dkat banting. dia amek sains asasi for one year. im soo proud of her. hope that she will do her best this one yr and success dlam hidup dia:)

i dpat new lessboss, fifi, aimi and iylia. fifi, she's prettay, gila putih and understanding. usually, i'll talk to her bila ad problem or prlukan advise. aimi, she's super cute, gila2, and baik. i kalau dduk dgn dia, mmg gamat! haha. iylia, she's talkative sesangat sangat! haha! bising, annoyed kdang2(even almost the time:p) bt the rest, dia okay je. three of us are sinlge ladies except iylia. she's taken. (tk best oh) haha! so, yeahh. despite of everything yg dh t'jadi, still, i have my friends and totally my family yg selalu ad dan selalu makes me happy while im not. i love everyone yg wujud dlm hidp i and i wish not to lose them. so, thts it for now. 

                                                                                                                        flying loves and kisses,

                                                                                                                             shazasha mya:)

missing her:)

she's FARAH AMYRA BALQIS BT YUSRY:)

goshh.. miss you so much, syng! baru last week i jmpe dy, after 4months, at last, jmpe jugak dy.. :D
she's amazing! kteorg dh kwn almost 3years now, and dy la the only one yg still memahami, still like before and still, smpai sekarang contact.. love her so much oh! (bapak less:p) dari f2, klas sama dgn dy, dudukdgn dy, then suddenly, dy pndh, urgh.. im lost! bhaha! mengarutnye aku.. rindu dy. well,just wanna let her know that i'll be always by her side whenever she need me. <3 you bebehh! :p

no matter how i try to hate him , still, i cnt. :'(





cause i've loved him too much..





and the fact is, i cnt live without him..





but i cnt stand this anymore..





goodnight. :'(

HATE THAT I LOVE YOU!

dy penah ckp, he loves me the most. the things that he hd said to me, dy tk penah ckp kt ex2 dy b4. and im the 1st person yg dy anggp 'wife' and not as a gf. thats all crap! i'd just read bnde2 kt blog dy, and jmpe bnde2 yg dy tulis psl ex dy, yg sme mcm dy pnh ckp kt i! perlu ke tipu?!well, congrats! u had just made me hate u more! shou;ld have know it from the beginning.  

:'(

yesterday, i was just came back from my mpp camp. i was so tired like hell but all i think about is that i wanna make sure that he will be the first person ill text rite after my parents. and so, i texted him. then, g online.. like usual, msti kne tgk page dy. this is when i read something that really made my heart felt like it wanna fall down and break. and at that moment, i really thought that he could care less about how ill feel if i read it. it never crossed my mind that he will greeted me home this way. seriously, i was so upset with him. he keep on texting me from yesterday evening until now but i refused to give him any respond. now, im having doubt about him. and my mum is not helping. dari smlm puji2 dy. haihh. im tired of this! he's keeping on doing the same thing again! and i have feeling like i wanna to call it off. i dnt need anyone to break my heart over and over again. i love him. but i love myself too. not to be selfish but i cant stand it anymore. this is not the first time he's doing this to me. 

don't read. or else, you will fall asleep. :D

when i first met you, i never would have imagined  that i would have strong feelings for you.. i never would have thought that i would have dreams about you..  or miss being by your side.. or get butterflies in my stomach when someone mentions your name.. when i first met you, i never would've thought that..
I WOULD LOVE YOU.. :)




its already 2.30..  and im not sleep yet. urgh.. my hubby is already sleep. now, its just me and this lappie. hehe. well, today is my 1st day having my own blog. before this, i dnt even know what blog is all about. hee..
but i kinda like it now. at least i don't have to use my old dairy with that key type and i usually lost the key, and there goes my locked-forever-dairy. :p
actually, this blog is made by my sista, INTAN SOFEA<3 . hee. thanks a lot darla! :)
dah la. i don't know what else to say. tataa for now!

love, mya:)